When my Father died two weeks ago, I discovered that I'm still afraid of my sisters. I'm afriad they'll gossip about me to the rest of the family, convince my other relatives that I'm a terrible person and that I will be cast out for life (because I do not do what my sisters tell me to do).

Nevermind that none of that is true. There is something about the death of a parent that can cause us to revert to a childlike state.

And children are master's at learning how to please their parents.

https://medium.com/storygarden/gifted-children-deny-emotions-df6ec9c1e0b1